my stupid brother hit me...its really hurt.....if my late father here,,he would mad at my brother,...but he not....he not longer here...i hate so much myself to be me....its hurt so much...my heart.....hope somebody call me and comfort me...but that feeling no longer exist since my father gone....why???why my mother did not defend me...why when im crying she not be with me like my father did???????? its really really hurt so much...my heart hurt so much that my head my brother hit......i am so lonely,,,and she not with me....my mother hate to be alone....but why she dont understand me that i also hate to be alone and hate leave in darknest??? sometime i feel like an idiot,,leave all the happiness i had for her maybe my future....why she never understand me>>???????
even when the funeral...she even not with me,,,she did not comfort me.....last night,,,i cry until my eyes swell,,,did she know????did she care????did she comfort me??? i feel very very very lonely....that why i hate to be me............ somebody please save me.........
