mcm. . .

mcm budu jaa post psal love2 neee. haihh~ ahhaha . .
btwn, semuanya sda over dgn dia . :) happy! sy skrg mkin happy dgn life sy,kuat makan pastu kuat tidur lagi nee ba, adui.

his girlfriend follow me in my twitter account. i wonder if she know what is goin on btwn me and her bf. ahha, i hope she doesnt know at all. well, i think she's a really nice girl. she's pretty, clever, kind, sweet ! what happen btwn me and her bf, is totally a stupid things . honestly, when am with him, i din know that he still wif his gf. so , anyone,pls dont blame me k :)


to know him, is a great moment but to have the memories with him, i can said that its sucks. :3 . however, i wish he always healthy and happy with his life. i dont hold any grudge toward him. i just cant forgive myself. the reason that only i know.

stronger . .

am getting stronger . .

am deleting ur sms each day ,. . until its empty . . when its empty that is the sign when am really forget about you . .

I dont know what will happen when we meet again . . I will learn to be cool . . ^^

mr .A

he makes me happy , , makes me smile , , makes me lost in my real world . . but I dont get the feeling . . I dont get it . . what is this feeling . .?

I know u still love ur ex-gf . . actually,, i dont know.. if it was EX or it STILL ur gf . . I hv no idea . . what am I for u? U said u LOVE me . . . but what is this . .

it hurt . .so much! I thought it wouldn't be this hurt . . I was unable to breath ,, I lost my appetite . . All I want to do is sleep! forget everything! so much . .

I just asking u one question . . if u still love her?

u din answer me . . but I think I know the answer already . .

want to know the whole story . . listen to "penakut" by Yuna . . the story is there . . perfect story . .

but still ,, I miss u . . am gonna forget u little by little . . ^^

HAHA! I just add his gf at FB . . waaaa~ reading all his post on her wall is really hurting me . . really! so much! but I need to be strong . .

he didn't even add me in his FB . . waa~ worried I will read all her post? . . yaayss . .

Its me EanLYcra Heartphillia . . I can do it!

confident ~

mum , y u said like that?

it hurt me . . do u know that. . nope,, isn't. . when I need u the most, where r u? when my father died. . where r u?. . u didn't hold me , , u did't tell me,, thats everything is gonna be okay . . do u know I was trauma and terrified when "he" gone . .

I still can't forget everything . . I keep holding the memories . . do u know that? do u ever ask me? do u ever ask me what I want n what I need?

I know am not pretty . . u dont need to remind me every night . . it hurt me ,,u know . .

last night when , , I said . . " do u hv to said that everyday?'' . . I really meant it . . I was dissapointed with u . . u were the one that close to me . . U should give me strength! support me! though my difficult times!! but u not . .

u don't know what hv I been through . . I was ashamed with myself .. I was unable to look at anyone at their eyes . . I really hope that u will support me . . say a good thing . . even if it was a lie . .

I lost my confident , . . each days . . U don't hv any idea . .!

but . . I still love u . . so much! i love u mum !

my love ~

so confuse these days . . for the first time. . I think I have this feeling toward an human . . A man !

He makes me smile . . . he makes me laugh . . . he makes my days happy . . but I want to break up . . I hope I never meet him , , I really hope . . actually he hv a gf already . . and yet . . he still want me? what the fuck is that . .

can't believe its happen to me . . the stupid thing is I dont want to lost him . . but , , I still want to break up . . I dont know what is our relationship status right now. . A friend? but ber"syg-syg" ? Are u playing with me? hell yaa . . . ok fine , I'll just follow the flow that you made. . .

I really dont know why I cant believe in you . . all that what you saying . . I want to . . I really want. . but everytime its happen . . I just doubt. .

I just want to meet a good man that can take care of me , , someone that ISLAM . . someone that can make me smile everyday even with a msg "assalamualaikum" . .

can't believe that he like me because am not that "alim" and "bpakaian mengikut peredaran zaman" . . hell ya . . yess ! am not that "alim" . . but am still ISLAM . . . I didn't tudung labuh , ,x bpakaian longgar . . but am still ISLAM .. am still SOLAT . . can't believe u judge me like that?

based on my image . . am not like what u think dude . . ok fine~ lets play . .

but still , , am still missing u . . am waiting for your msg n call . . hahah . . its not happen . . u just follow ur lust only . . want me because we are in the same place . . and yet . . when u in different place , , u forgot me . .

am wondering if u really like me and want me . . I really doubt it,, honestly . . I cant go on if this things continue . . lets break up . . but yet my heart cant lie how much I want him in my life .

alone ~

felt so lonely here . . . I miss "he" so mush . . . my father . . I wish I can turn the time . . I want to go back 4 years ago . . when everything is perfect for me ! . .

being alone is always happen for me . . hard to smile. . am going back on 19hb jan . . x sabar pula . . I hope something will change .