stronger . .

am getting stronger . .

am deleting ur sms each day ,. . until its empty . . when its empty that is the sign when am really forget about you . .

I dont know what will happen when we meet again . . I will learn to be cool . . ^^

mr .A

he makes me happy , , makes me smile , , makes me lost in my real world . . but I dont get the feeling . . I dont get it . . what is this feeling . .?

I know u still love ur ex-gf . . actually,, i dont know.. if it was EX or it STILL ur gf . . I hv no idea . . what am I for u? U said u LOVE me . . . but what is this . .

it hurt . .so much! I thought it wouldn't be this hurt . . I was unable to breath ,, I lost my appetite . . All I want to do is sleep! forget everything! so much . .

I just asking u one question . . if u still love her?

u din answer me . . but I think I know the answer already . .

want to know the whole story . . listen to "penakut" by Yuna . . the story is there . . perfect story . .

but still ,, I miss u . . am gonna forget u little by little . . ^^

HAHA! I just add his gf at FB . . waaaa~ reading all his post on her wall is really hurting me . . really! so much! but I need to be strong . .

he didn't even add me in his FB . . waa~ worried I will read all her post? . . yaayss . .

Its me EanLYcra Heartphillia . . I can do it!

confident ~

mum , y u said like that?

it hurt me . . do u know that. . nope,, isn't. . when I need u the most, where r u? when my father died. . where r u?. . u didn't hold me , , u did't tell me,, thats everything is gonna be okay . . do u know I was trauma and terrified when "he" gone . .

I still can't forget everything . . I keep holding the memories . . do u know that? do u ever ask me? do u ever ask me what I want n what I need?

I know am not pretty . . u dont need to remind me every night . . it hurt me ,,u know . .

last night when , , I said . . " do u hv to said that everyday?'' . . I really meant it . . I was dissapointed with u . . u were the one that close to me . . U should give me strength! support me! though my difficult times!! but u not . .

u don't know what hv I been through . . I was ashamed with myself .. I was unable to look at anyone at their eyes . . I really hope that u will support me . . say a good thing . . even if it was a lie . .

I lost my confident , . . each days . . U don't hv any idea . .!

but . . I still love u . . so much! i love u mum !