im confuse...

i love my mother and i dont want her to be alone...she 52 this year,,still working to feed us,.
my sis working in KL,sis 2nd school in the nurse coarse,,my bro working but always outstation..
and the left is just me and my mum....i really pity my mum..i love her so much,,,,,

i really worried about my SPM's result...it make me a deep thinking about my result...."what it gonne be?" but that not all it about....

1. if i get a good result,,my mother will happy....but im gonna leave her for my further study...and that gonna make me feel unhappy..

2. if i get the worst result,,it gonna embarrassed my mother and my family,,(well some of my aunt looked down of us...)and that gonna make my mum feel unhappy but im not gonna leave my mum..

what should i do?????? im confuse,,i hope 'HE' is here to help me....it only a hope..nothing else...